~Christmas is now in the air~

Woots woots!

December is coming, I can't wait for holidays, the sales, coming up parties/ dinners and Christmas most importantly. As always and classic, Christmas is all time favorite. How much I wish I would experience Christmas in Western countries, someday in future. The Christmas music, ornaments, decorations, gifts, sthe snow, Christmas trees, every bit of it...Ohhh...so nice!!!! Well, I have been busy preparing Christmas gifts and hope that my exam would be over soon. I hate the feeling, hahaha...I want the three days over soon, Thursday, Friday of this week and the next Sunday, 9 Dec and I am free and I am totally ready for Christmas. :)

I have been preparing my handmade gifts for all my girls in the Boys; Brigade. I enjoy my new hobby and I could actually spend my whole time by making bows and ribbons, browsing the internet for tutorials and that is not good in my exam season. :( 

I really enjoy it and I am happy. Thinking to make and sell it, but quite impossible since one of my friend is making them and selling them too. I don't want to create any hard feelings, but I am really eager to find a way selling them just for fun, hobby and little bit extra money! Muahahahahaha...

My online business is doing okay so far and it's seasonal, sometimes good and not. But still okay, I shopped too anyway for me, my nephew, this and that hahahaha...Oh ladies, why is shopping can't never be apart of us?!? Shopping is never ends, I try to control as well, hehehehe...Talking about online shopping, well, it is really convenience and sometimes, much more cheaper, depends on your skill and technique too. Don't simply spend, I always remind my self, but end of year, more expenses is always there for weddings and Christmas and holiday. 

I have been busy too for almost a month arranging and assisting my Junior Intensive Class in the Boys' Brigade to get their gold award. It is totally exhausting and tiring, it is quite stressing, but there is nothing could be compared with their achievement. The total and maximum satisfaction are there. I hope everyone of them enjoy their time in Junior and of course, get their gold awards and I believe they would. Ohh, a bit sad letting them to go on Senior as I just really develop a relationship with them. Well, time for them to grow. It never comes to my mind that, serving in the ministry is taking half of my time really. I am not complaining, I complain sometimes, but I am happy and enjoy each bitter and sweet with them, the members, the officers, my love and all arguments and conflict, make us stronger and gonna change and improve us in future. I can't wait too for next year, it is gonna be an awesome year too for everyone, you, me and them.

I wish me have a breakthrough this year. I am not so sure I am having a great breakthrough this year. In relationship wise, I could so okay, not so good or bad. It comes and go, tighter or loosen. Every moment counts and make me ponder well, what the real relationship is. As shared by my Pastor yesterday about relationship, the way we view them would affect the way we treat them. It is 100% correct. We tend to be good to person that we like and just so so to those we don't really like. I am one of them. I hope I could restore all my relationship. I need my Lord's help. I could not do it alone. For this, I really prayed that God would really open my heart and change, lead me.Amen!

 Last but not least, I can't wait for my exam to be done soon and I am totally ready for Christmas. My Christmas mood has been on before months.

He will open the door for me, I still believe!

Being a Christian is not easy. Prayers will not be answer directly when you pray about it. You still have doubt and so do I. I question His existence in my life, and even His blessings.  My man always told me that I am being thankful enough in my life. Yes, that is the fact. I am human, a sinner and still complain and compare. I am learning all this life to be more and more like Him and would like to treasure it my self.

I complain still, but one thing I still believe that is I am who I am today, with all I do and I have, He is my master. For the job, for the courage to start my study again, my ministry, serving in a totally new ministry for me, my life and all, it is His blessings. All doors open for me, because He opens it. He knows that I am complaining about my job and want to change to a new one. He used things and people that I think, it's what He want me to do, but Lord, once again You remind me that You will open the door for Your people and no one would be able to close and You close the door and no one would open it.

I know Lord, that job, serving in ministry may not be the way for me yet, but somehow, please continue to use me and my man to serve You and Your people. Strengthen us too and have Your way in us. Amen!

Father Lord,

for all,

please have Your way in me.

In my job especially, may You lead me to worship You through my work.

In my study, please give me wisdom Lord.

In my life, may I live Your will out and become more and more like you.

In the ministry, strengthen me inside out to serve those children and people related and I work with.

In my relationship, bless us Lord.

Let me be able to be his support, anytime and anywhere.

Also, to have a good relationship with all his families and friends, my families, friends, relatives, my colleagues.

Blessed be Your name.

Amen.